DAY 1: TRAUMA RECOVERY and the leaf that could change my life.



Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, violence, trauma, suicide, grief, rape.

(USA) FEEL SUICIDAL? CALL 988 988 (National Suicide Prevention)

(UK) FEEL SUICIDAL? CALL 116 123 (The Samaritans)


TO DO: START. KEEP FUCKING GOING.


Today I started trauma therapy with a specialist CPTSD psychotherapist. For the first time in my life I spoke openly about the darkest days - years - of my life.


I wrote down these experiences in chronological order, before the session, to help me be completely open. The timeline documented over 30 years of my life; one shocking headline after another. The list included childhood sexual abuse; multi perpetrator physical and sexual violence; identifying my Dad’s body after he committed suicide; watching my beautiful Mum dying; life changing coercive control, and several other experiences that I am not yet ready to share, but hope one day I will be.


Why share, so publicly?


Now I’m ready. It is liberating, validating and healing, for me personally I hope others who are suffering can find strength and encouragement to seek support, from my openness.


I will never divulge anything I’m not 100% ready to.


The leaf?


I took my dog for a walk in the woods after the session.

When I saw a beautiful, rusty leaf in my path, among a canopy of mainly green above; I felt happy.


Just as the season changes, one leaf at a time, I will heal, one day at a time. I will keep this leaf on my to-do-list chalk board.


To do: have self compassion and make decisions that serve me well.


I am going to continue to document and share my journey, as I heal. I hope that others will be encouraged to seek help and open my inbox to anyone who would like to be signposted towards the support options available.


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GET SUPPORT

IF YOU FEEL SUICIDAL CALL 988 988 (National Suicide Prevention)

https://psychcentral.com/.../complex-posttraumatic-stress...

IF YOU FEEL SUICIDAL CALL 116 123 (The Samaritans)

CPTSD: https://www.mind.org.uk/.../post-traumatic.../complex-ptsd/

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All of my lyrics are based on these experiences and the symptoms of my traumas. There is a link in my bio if you would like to listen.

CREDIT AG DU NOYER

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